Pissed

Yes, I am. Seriously. I am so fed up with dealing with other people's shit. Why my whole life changed 2 years ago...I guess 3 really, starting with when my dad died, and I became caregiver of the world. I am so tired of people not taking responsibility for themselves, and taking out their shitty attitude on everyone. Yes, I'm speaking about my sister. It makes me mad that we are considering putting my mother in LTC, but the one I really need help with, I cannot get. Are there homes for the bi-polar? I'm tired of dealing with mental illness. I'm sure it's wearing and difficult, and lots of other emotions, but it's crappy being on the other side too. Because you're the one who has to do everything, there's nothing to hide behind..."oh, she's sick, that's why she's like that". I'm tired of excusing bad behavior to my children on her behalf. Really, I'm fed up. Can you tell?

2009

My resolution is to take this blogging thing seriously. I keep telling myself I don't have time, yet I manage to read other blogs.

2009 started off well, at least for a couple of days. Son1 is going through a difficult time again, and I'm not sure what to do with him this time. It seems as though I get one person doing OK, and then the wheels fall off of someone else. I need a live in therapist.

So I'm enjoying the "new" TV year. Starting off with The Bachelor. I really like Jason from the Bachelorette, and his boy is cute as the dickens. But really, where do they get these fruitcakes for him to choose from?? I went to a forum to read the spoilers, so I think I know who he ends up with. The awards are starting again, I watched the People's Choice, which was crap, except for Carrie Underwood. The girl does have some pipes. I saw her in person 2 (3?) times last year with my daughter, and she has come a long way from the first time we saw her. Speaking of who(m?),(my daughter, not Carrie,) I am really missing her. When she's here, I get annoyed with the bickering between her and Son2, but I really do enjoy her company. She's got a great sense of humour.

Son2 is getting a tutor, whether he likes it or not. And he doesn't. May the Lord have mercy on his soul. The tutor's, not Son2. I'll post how that is going once he starts.

Enough for now. I need to go bake something.

Update

Scrummy.

Back at last

So I thought I'd have a go at baking today. Mostly because I'm hungry, and also I'm trying to avoid doing any real work. I have Mother up for the day, and she's currently watching Ricardo on the Food Network. Put that channel on and you're usually good for a couple of loads of laundry and an internet peek or two.
Anway, here's the recipe I stole and then amended, so I guess it's mine now.
It was called "Caramel Macaroon Bars" and I will amend to my changes

Bake: 360 (360? Seriously? I used 350) degrees F for 20 minutes and again for 25 to 30 minutes
Makes: 9x9-inch pan

1/4 cup melted butter (I used non-hydrogenated margarine)
3/4 cup packed brown sugar
1/2 cup all-purpose flour
1/4 teaspoon baking powder
1 egg
2 cups grated cookie or flaked coconut (not sure what the heck cookie coconut is, I used 1/2 sweetened and 1/2 unsweetened coconut)
1 1/3 cups (14-oz. can) sweetened condensed milk (I wanted to use the fat-free kind, but alas, had none)
Caramel Frosting:
Melt 2 tablespoons butter and 2 tablespoons milk with 1/4 cup brown sugar. Stir in 1 cup powdered sugar. (I didn't use this - you'll see why)

Combine the first 5 ingredients; blend well. Spread in greased 9x9 pan. Bake at 360 (again with the 360? Why? 350 worked fine!) degrees F for 20 minutes.
Combine coconut and sweetened condensed milk. Spoon over caramel base. Spread to cover.(I melted 3 bars of those Cadbury thins - 2 with almonds and 1 without. I melted them in the nuker and then spread on the top. Pretty and yummy too, I hope). Bake 25 to 30 minutes, or until light golden brown. Cool and frost (Ha! no need with the chocolate!). Cut into small squares (Yeah. Like that will happen)

Still baking, but looks good enough to eat. Which I intend to do as soon as I can cut them without burning myself.

New Vow

Holy crap, has it been a year since I wrote in this thing??
Well, those people who(m?) I last spoke about didn't buy the house. We sold it for real in August to a couple of not-very-nice people. We moved in October to the 'family home'. The movers we hired--sucked. Christmas came and went. We went on a family vacation in April, a Caribbean cruise, all 7 of us. It was lovely but sad, because we'll never do that again. Mother's dementia has increased on a monthly basis, but the saving grace is what a far nicer person she is. I guess there's always a bright side to everything.

This is me sleeping

So, it's 3 am, and here I am. I went to bed 2 hours ago, and just lay there thinking. A couple came to the house tonight and seemed really interested. Wanted to buy my dining room set. Hell, they can have it if they give us a good price for the house. Didn't feel the need to tell them that though. I hope we can work out a deal if they make an offer.

In the Beginning

So I created this as an outlet. Somewhere I can whine to, without worrying about hurting someone's feelings, or editing what I say. Except I probably can't even be honest here, in worry that someone finds it. Oh Hell, let's give it a shot.
Our house is still unsold, we just put the price down, so here's hoping it happens sooner than later. While I like the look of the clean house, it's hell to keep up. Not only that but worrying about going out, in case someone wants to see it, and who will be home, and what about the animals? etc, etc, etc. Once it's sold, then I can enjoy summer and start packing.
Daughter is still under the weather. Wisdom teeth are out, but she has 2 dry sockets. Are the other 2 wet sockets? And if you don't have wisdom teeth, are you stupid? I only have 2, which never came through the gums, so I doubt they ever will. Is there a cut off age for such things?
How often can you post on this? As son 1 would say, I'm such a noob - but I suppose I'll learn as I go. Probably more later.